50 yrs of independance.... but we Indians were played out by the Malays!!!!!

50 yrs of independance and i rejoice that we were safe-guarded by a Land that has provided us milk and honey..... Yet part of my heart aches, when i realise we as Malaysians are not brothers anymore. Yes indeed i'm talking about the Malay community... The Chinese brothers will always remain brothers till the end. The Malays are undermining the capabilities and the existence of the Indian community!!!! Deep down in my heart it aches because i'm a patriotic person but it's such a waste to have patriotism in your heart when you're surrounded by cheap bastard's like the clan of the Government.... It's all about the money!!! Malaysia can only enjoy 50 years of independance and the rest of the years to come it ain't gonna be a peaceful one that's for sure.
When the effect of Globalization takes control fully...... My bad!!! I don't like to say it but it goes like this " All you Mothafucka's out there......we're gonna hit you with all we've got!!!!!!

50 yrs of Independance.....

1. Has the Deputy Prime Minister been an Indian or a Chinese or any other ethnic race?
Were the Asli's given a chance to be in Politics or maybe be a DPM ?

2. Is there a freedom in religion? Why do humans fear of conversion? Do you have less faith that your God is an Almighty, Powerful and a True God? Everybody has a freedom to choose their religion..... Then why does our Government only fear when a Muslim try to convert to another religion. Why don't the Government fear when a Christian or Buddhist converts to islam? So it's an Islamic Government which is not bothered about other religious sects within Malaysia. God is watching Malay-sia!!!! A time of turbulence will come !!! God will re-pay everything in due time.....

3. Islam teaches about peace..... but does it teach about equality of mankind or love? i wonder.....
Learn it from our Government they set a good example as a Islamic Government...... "I feel like puking"!!!! Ministers should learn how to "walk the talk"... Mahathir used to talk so much about the United States of America .... Yes it's true they have morale issues!!!! but when it comes to humanitarian equality..... They "WALK THE TALK".... freedom of speech.... freedom in religion and equality among races.... Mahathir needs to be more humble to swallow this reality which he neither any of his predecessors nor his accuaintance can or will ever fulfill for Malaysia...It should have been Macinsia but too bad.... we pendatangs gave and put too much trust on the other indo pendatang (u know who...it start's with em{spell it}........ i pity the asli's..... my heart ache's for them.... It's like the white people depriving a chance for the aborigines in Aussie...... so keeping it short it turn out to be Malay-sia instead of Macinsia......

to be continued!!!!!

People Management.

I don't really have any advice, other than to say it's the most appallingly difficult thing I've ever tried to do and I wish I had a better idea of how to do it. In my experience what you end up with is the by-product of your failure to achieve what you set out to do. It may turn out OK, but it wasn't what you meant and you've no idea how you got there.

This is what i've learnt throughout the week. I hope there will be a sense of forgiveness.
But it's hard when you know damage has been done and you can't rectify things and you don't wanna rectify things. As they say TIME WILL HEAL.... I think i need some time to quiet down myself.... Let things cool of by itself..... A man who refrains or controls his tongue...Holds himself together......

Well friend i never meant it...... I'm naughty....and i love to disturb you a lot..... It's not that i don't have respect, I'm just playful when it comes to you....because you r such a baby.... I'm sorry......


If we would build on a sure foundation in friendship, we must love friends for their sake rather than for our own.

Everything Matters.....

Hopeless day's do come in a person's life. It came today for me......

In my whole day of life in this wide wide world , i've never been embarased like how i am today.
The biggest blunder in life came today.

I learn a lesson that curiosity kills.....never underestimate the capabilities of the higher authorities. Eventhough you work hard in your office, when it comes to your performance evaluation it's not your hard work that counts , but every single other particles are also involved such as attendance, adherence, compliance to company rules and regulations and performance.
GUESS what ....... I screwed big time on the part where it says COMPLIANCE to Company Rules........SHIT.

When my Manager approached me .... my balls were literally in my throat....
But as calm as he was I knew that he couldn't do much for me.....
Well there goes my application for a senior position.... I salute my Manager whom eventhough is a year elder than me for being so calm and polite. If it was my Dad..... my dad would have literally slap the hell out of me......

I am really down today for being so dumb for these moments that i screwed up.... Guess everyone has a Devil in them.....

Jeremy ..... I'm sorry man.. I know you never expected this from me.... i assure u i'll be up to my descent conduct in office...

HR... u can issue anything you want to...... I'm fucking not bothered.... I don't blame you guys either but a verbal warning would have been much better....coz i know the limits...
But if you r issuing a warning letter.....Go Ahead i'm not fucking bothered bout it..

If i get the warning letter in my hands......That's the day i say Bye- Bye to my company...
I have to move on...... I don't blame anybody else but me..... I made the mistake and i'll leave...

I guess the issue in this world is like this..... No matter how many good things you do your entire life .... just by making one miserable mistake ...they forget bout all the goodness and they'll mark you down like nobody's bussines.....

I take pride and joy in my Lord God.......at least he Forgives....
Forgive me god for the sin i've done........

There goes my career record in the drains......Fcukin shit.





Champions believe in themselves even if no one else does In order to succeed, we must first believe that we can They can because they think they can


Fix your eyes on perfection and you make almost everything speed towards it. Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than anyone expects of you. Hope sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and achieves the impossible. We only learn our limits by going beyond them


A mistake is only a mistake if you don’t learn from it Life’s challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they are supposed to help you discover who you are. If I had to live my life over again, I’d dare to make more mistakes next time

It Began Today---------> Blogging....

It all started because of my two lovely friends.......GK and Alvin.

They inspired me to Blog.....through their blogs......

At least from now onwards , I hope i can reach out to many hearts in destitute.

My name is Joshua D. I was born on the 1st of March 1980 in a peaceful town called Kuantan from the state of Pahang.

I come from a family of 4, my dad, mum and my younger bro, Jason.

I stand in front of you and acknowledge that i have gone through HELL in my life.
Growing up all this years has made me stronger and yet at times LIFE has taken it's toll through times of hardship as well as great awakenings.

I have backslided a lot as a Christian and have paid a heavy price for it......

All i hope for the coming years is to be closer to My Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ and to have a companion who is a friend , who loves me and accepts my unconditional love and a person who sails with me in this journey right up till the day i breathe the last.

Hope Life brings Light and Light brings Joy into my heart and the hearts of many.


If a man will begin with certainties, he shall end in doubts; but if he will be content to begin with doubts he shall end in certainties.

Sir Francis Bacon (1561 - 1626)